A New experience

I don’t tend to talk a lot about my pregnancy (Or I hope I don’t) I have no desire to flaunt it in people’s faces nor do I want always talk about it. It does pop up in conversation occasionally but I think that is mainly due to the fact that I look massive for a 29 week pregnant person. So today, I am having a little talk about something pregnancy related on my blog so people get a choice.

One of the issues that can occur in pregnancy is palpitations, now I have been pregnant before and did not experience palpitations like I have with this pregnancy. It started off as the odd one, then I use to get them quite often – around every couple of hours. I told my midwife, who told a doctor who checked me over then sent me for an EGC (on Christmas eve). The results came back normalish but they referred me to cardiology, they said the appointments can take a while and hey presto we have an appointment for today.

My appointment today, I thought I would have an ECG but no. I sat on the bed with my top half exposed and had my heart scanned. I can only compare it to having an ultrasound, I could hear my heart the way you can hear your child’s and if I looked at the screen there was a picture of my heart. It was the strangest appointment I have ever had, the noise of my heart was bizarre to me like a squelch but at the same time it is amazing what this world can do!

So that was my appointment, strange yet amazing.

My five year old's problems

Considering I couldn’t be bothered to write earlier I bet you were not expecting a post so soon! I only wanted to raise a concern of mine which has gotten me very upset tonight; it’s about my son Joshua and homework. Homework is supposed to be good for children and I think it’s a good thing, but when your 5 year old is crying because he “cant” do it – well let’s just say I don’t like homework right now.

Joshua’s homework was to go around this racetrack made out of ovals, in the ovals were words (like can, get, got etc.) and if you knew the word you could colour it in green but if you sounded it out you coloured it in orange. Joshua started off well but then all of a sudden he changed and couldn’t do it, he cried because he didn’t know the words. Now he is a soft child, I will admit that but I know the difference between crocodile tears because he can’t be bothered and real tears. These were real, I have never seen him get so upset over his homework before and I know he had the easier one as well (Thanks to one of the mums posting the homework on Facebook for another mum).

I wanted to cry myself because no child should be upset over homework, its all about learning but he honestly thought he wasn’t capable. He is capable, ok so he has some issues like he is easily distracted but that’s something I can control! What I can’t control is his lack of confidence in himself, which is weird because if you take him to playzone (big soft play area for kids) he will happily run off. He does football on a Saturday because I wanted to build his confidence and the first day he was off quite happily.

I wonder to myself if him moving house and school had an affect on him. His old school was lovely but there is some huge differences, like they didn’t do homework and they also had children who didn’t know English. So were they concentrating on the other children to get them to the same standard that those who need a little bit of help got left behind? I worry that’s a reason the fact that whilst half the class needed to learn English that those who knew English were left to their own devices, which in turn caused Joshua to be easily distracted (because whose telling them off when they concentrate on the other kids) and then he was left not doing any work.

I also feel like I need to do more, we do what the new school asks, the homework and reading. Nothing more though, so now I need to come up with something to help him improve but words are not my strong point.

I am going to stop now, purely because I feel if I don’t I will break!

Watching the Day fly by

So I am struggling to get up and do anything! I am out of bed, but I am not ready to leave my sofa. I just can’t be bothered with anything, I don’t feel motivated even though I need to do quite a bit today. I feel like I can’t be arsed to write in this blog, which is bad since I set this up to review things but its turns out to be an outlet for my frustration!

I think maybe it’s a combination of things, on Friday I worked from 7:30 in the morning through to 9pm and whereas it might not be difficult for me normally since I am pregnant I just can’t cope with it. It screwed me up the next day, I had a headache and didn’t feel like doing anything! Today I feel the same, I just cannot be bothered and it’s not a great.

I have also been reading random blogs, I look at them and think why do people want to read about that? It’s the same with facebook statuses I wonder why people do certain things and in my mind it makes no sense. I guess you can’t always understand people, even if you know them sometimes they are difficult to understand. We are all different which I get but surely common sense has to come in at some point?

I am sorry this is a crappy post, to be honest I can’t be bothered to write another more.

Struggling through

Life has a way of getting people down, it doesn’t matter who you are but you are entitled to your own problems. They might not be as big, scary or even sad as others but they are your problems. Today someone at work mentioned the fact that their life is not bad at all considering what others go through and I would have to agree with them about my own life too. Someone they know went away on a holiday and came back with a pain in their side; they thought they had pulled muscles. Turns out its cancer of the lymph’s and its spread to her brain, what makes it worse – she has two young children. It made me think, I have a young child and another one on the way. I would be terrified to think my kids would grow up without me and I am glad for the fact they don’t.

So think about your life – is it really that bad? You have bad days yes, everyone does. Problems, yes – they can be solved 90% of the time and the other 10% what is the point in worrying?

Now I cannot deal with problems without worrying, I am a born worrier and I have no idea how to change that. My life is quite stressful at the moment, I don’t want to socialise or be all smiley. I just want to do overtime at work to stop one stress but the others I cannot control which makes me mad. I have pregnancy issues; I resolve one issue and get another which is frustrating! My new one is hip problems where I need to speak to a physio to check them out, then finally got my cardiology appointment for my heart and frankly that scares me. This is all stuff that is around me, I can control it to a certain degree but how do I solve a problem which is over a 100 miles away? I can’t. Don’t get me wrong, I have to know how my brother is coping but I just get mad about it when I shouldn’t. He is currently staying with my parents for a “few” days because his wife is SO stressed with it she is making herself ill. The thing that frustrates me, he wants to be admitted but there are no spaces for him… He was caught shop lifting and is now back to drinking… he is a person who needs help and no one can give it him.

So how do I stop worrying? My life isn’t bad, in fact it’s a lovely life but it has its own issues just like everyone else’s. I just can’t seem to pull myself out of this rut; it’s hard to motivate myself. If there is anyone reading this blog and wants to give advice, by all means please do.

Out until I post again

Simple Facial Wipes Review

I have to apologise again, it has been 6 days since my last post but my life outside of the internet has been rather stressful. This post however is not about my life but about Simple Facial Wipes! I have recently become a Bzz Agent (https://www.bzzagent.co.uk/) it’s a site where you fill out surveys and they then send you products to review.

 

 

Simple Facial Wipes I can say are not something I would choose to buy normally, I never remember to use wipes (it has taken me like 2 weeks to use them and there is only 7!). I do wear makeup but I tend to just wash my face at night because wipes in general tend to make my mascara go ALL over my face.

The Simple Facial Wipes are different from wipes I have used before, they are not too wet or dry and they are quite big! They feel quite soft too, so they don’t have that rough edge to them or you feel the need to scrub your face rather than wipe. My skin is not normally sensitive however when I am pregnant it’s actually VERY sensitive, it becomes dry and I tend to get a lot of rashes. The Simple Facial wipes have not dried my skin out more, nor have they caused me to flare up with spots or any sort of rash (which is a big bonus for me!).  One thing I did love, my mascara is not all over my face! I spend a good half an hour sometimes trying to get my mascara off with wipes but it takes me about five minutes with these wipes. The only downside I can see is the price, its £3 for a pack of 25 and whereas the wipes are good I cannot say I would fork out £3 for wipes! I think it’s the fact I am a mum and I rather spend that £3 on something else like milk or bread – it’s not cheap being a parent so I am sure unless you earn a decent wage (which I don’t but it is better than a lot of others) that you can see the disadvantage to good wipes! I would say it’s about an 8/10 – points deducted for price and how many you get in a pack!

This is the first time I have reviewed a product so any help would be appreciated if you think I need to include more or less! Let me know!

Out for now

A quick post

I apologise for not posting, I have been so busy and honestly - I feel quite stressed and down. I know what is causing it (I think) but I cant see an outcome right now... I will get round to posting something, probably about my facial wipes from bzz agent or something else...

Out for now but not forever