Today has not been a good day for me; I won’t go into a lot
of details because some of it I feel should not be put for everyone to see! But
in short, I ended up in tears and pretty much having a panic attack. Which didn’t
help when I had to do a group exercise, which was part of an interview for my
current role in my job but it went ok (I think). This I can go into more
detail, basically I cover a supervisor position and if the person I cover
wanted to come back to the role I would go back to being an agent. However, for
some reason I and the two other covers have to retake an interview (along with
other candidates) for those cover positions. I find out tomorrow, I am not
worried if I don’t have the role because I get to go on Maternity soon but at
the same time it would be a shame since I have done the role for 2 years!
Another thing that has upset me today (but I am a little
over sensitive), why do people think its ok to call a pregnant person fat! I
have got a large bump, people have been calling me fatty etc for a long time
during this pregnancy but now it’s starting to get to me. For me, I have an
issue with my body and I am very sensitive when it comes to weight… I try not
to be and normally smile or laugh because I don’t see the point in letting it
get to me. But when I was pregnant with my first child (who is now 5) at the
start I weighed about 7 stone, was real thin and honestly I probably looked
ill. I doubled my weight with my first child… I did get rid of some of the
extra weight but it knocked my confidence. I will say I look healthier for
having a bit of weight on me rather than how thin I was. Now I am pregnant for
the second time one of the concerns I have had is will I put on a lot of weight
like last time, I ask my partner, friends, family and mostly they say no but I
wonder if I have… Writing this is actually making me quite tearful which may
sound silly to most but I honestly don’t deal well with weight and have been
ignoring it for the past 5 years because that’s how I found it easier to deal
with it. My baby is due in 7 weekish, I guess I will see how much bigger I am
then (well probably a little longer than that) but I do plan to breast feed,
exercise (when I have recovered from the labour) but only time will tell. I
just want the comments to stop…
Bit harsh calling you fatty. Pregnancy naturally makes a women put on a few lbs and luckily we lose most or sometimes all when baby comes! I'll join the gym with you after baby arrives Natty, really helped to have a trainer who planned out what we needed to do. I'm definitely going to start out on Aqua aerobics again as it was pretty fun!
ReplyDeleteI love ya just as you are, harsh and silly comments like that are not needed. Just know your gorgeous and currently growing a baby! forget the comments (I know it's hard) your a star
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