Feeling emotional

Today has not been overall easy for me, not due to any particular reason just one of those emotional up and down days! At this moment in time I am fighting tears so I don't go to school to pick my son up looking like a prat. I reckon it’s a combination of feeling ill, being in pain, work things, home things and most likely hormones.

 

I started off yesterday feeling proper rough - headache, nose running and sore throat. Basically caught Tom’s cold! I went in to find that work had decorated my desk; I got a balloon, flowers, chocolates and lots for the baby! They reckon I won’t be there till Friday the 24^th when my Maternity leave starts because I look big (which I will come to later). I came home, couldn't do any house work due to lack of energy but feeling okish. Then Tom and I opened the gifts work got for the baby, there was outfits, shoes, milk, juice, a record book, a voucher for mothercare, hand/foot print, bath stuff, even a big brother top for Josh and more! I then go bed early and sleep.

 

So I went and got Josh, meaning I am not loner battling tears before going to get him – I am also not crying!

 I wake up without headache (which I am glad of since I work with computers and the lights on them irritate the fuck out of me when I have a headache. However I still have a running nose and sore throat with cough. Go to work, talk to my friend about the package I received and how much I loved it. To which she replied that everyone at works loves me, I said I was surprised to how much I got and she said she collected a total of £150! I was a little overwhelmed but I just got one with my job and went to my midwife. She tells me the baby is back to back meaning I have to try and turn him before he comes out! It’s not a bad thing but can prolong labour, just got to spend a lot of time on all fours! This comes to my bump size, I am measuring fine and she is not worried about my size at all! My bump looks different recently and bigger because of the way baby is lying, she even estimated (but couldn’t say if she was definitely right) that the baby would weigh about early 7lbs right now.

 

So I feel a bit worried about the fact the baby is lying the wrong way purely because I don’t want prolonged labour but there is things we can do to resolve it! She made me get on the weighing scales too (which I will ALWAYS hate) but was surprised when she told me that I have put on less than the recommended (also made me feel happy). But I have sugar in my urine, she’s not worried but will check in 2 weeks! I am just so uncomfy and sick of puking when the indigestion/heartburn appears. Then I worry about how I will cope, with a newborn again, money and other things too… It’s easy to say take each day as it comes but my brain doesn’t process like that. I am not asking for people to comment, in fact if you want to comment -  please don’t give me some sort of patronising comment about what I can do! I know what I can do I just want to talk because it helps me stop worrying to get it all down. As one of the saying goes “A burden shared is a burden halved”